For the record, I
am still defined as having
Paraneoplastic Neuromyopathy & Neuropathy. Still no clue to the
cause. After all the tests and all the Doctors my condition is still a mystery.
I have come
through Colan Cancer, Radiation Therapy
and Chemotherapy and I am told there is no cancer now.
It would be easy
to stop and abandon karate.
Among the symptoms
are my speech is affected, my central nervous system (such as affecting
balance) general weakness, etc. I do not drive for others safety, taking walks
outdoors I use a walker to prevent fall.
I practice daily,
but have rarely more energy to do 3 kata. My Yang tai chi after 35 years of
practice is impossible to practice as I was taught. I spent a year to work up a
different version to work within my current abilities.
I still help
teach the beginners, with some assistance from Devin VanCurren. I still run the
adult group.
I studied with so
many people there are still lessons to share.
With so much free
time, I still research for clues I can find what karate is. For example in the
past year I am still finding more clues. There are few secrets anymore. But
each new bit located still shows how much isn’t shown.
I am constantly
reviewing my notes from my studies, with many instructors. Both to verify those
portions in my curriculum, and to review the many parts I didn’t include to
seek usefulness for the instructors. I still share some of them with the group..
I attempt to
share some of what I have seen on this blog, should any student of mine want to
join that search, And those practices are not lost to them.
I continue in my
larger product, to understand more and more about the application potential of
the Isshinryu system. I just completed a two month study into 32 application
potentials of a kamae within Isshinryu SunNuSu Kata.
Karate posseses
both hard and soft. With my current weakness I spend much time looking at the
softer use of Isshinryu technique. While trining to use the hard is logical We
all ageor are weaker than others. Teaching youth makes that more clear. I have
many studies from other systems that use softer power, and continur to find
uses within Isshinryu,
The Way of Inhaling and Exhaling is
Softness and Hardness.
I started the studies
for myself. Not fame or acknowledgement of others.
I competed to
push myself, None noticed for the most part. I was lucky for some of the best
were there, and make me work better to
compete against them. I did have some success, but that was a secondary event.
I realized 1 second after the event, it was gone, Judges might well have a
different opinion a second later. I was never seeking a judges approval. My
university deabate coach made that clear, Quoting him “The logical
answer, is to think of the judge as an idiot. You compete to strengthen your case. If the
judges are idiots, then gaining their approval just means idiots agreed with
your performance. Hardly what you need in the long run.” I never forgot that. The logic applies
at the tournament for karate too.
To work towards
that understanding I have competed at one time or another with Isshinryu,
Nothern Shaolin, Shotokan, Tai Chi,Northers Preying Mantis, Bando Staff. Each
effort was instructive.
I have one rule for myself, to work to double my understanding what karate is each year. I am still committed to that principle.
I have long
maintained it I ended up in the desert I would end up teaching rocks to do
Isshinryu.