When I was a
rather new black belt I used to travel and train with many different
instructors in my area. Working with one of them privately, one Saturday
morning, he was working on his Rohai kata that morning. And as he was working
made a mistake in his form, causing him to stop.
Now if he hadn’t
stopped I would have never known he made a mistake, for at that time I had no
knowledge of Rohai kata. But mistakes to happen, but what came next was nothing
I ever expected.
He said, “I am sure
glad none of my students were here, I can’t let them see me making a mistake”.
He went further on, being in charge it is necessary to be perfect before them.”
I had never
heard that before. I have no idea if my instructors ever made a mistake before
me, I was too focused on my own work. Never paid attention to whether they ever
made one. But I had never heard anyone suggest black belts, instructors or
instructors of instructors should be error free.
Time passed and
the years rolled on, I taught youth and then adults.
I have made some
mistakes in front of my students over the years. For the younger students, I
explained being human we all make mistakes, but as martial artists discovering
them means more work is necessary to get better.
For the adults,
who trained with me for decades, I have forgotten some movements on forms,
started one form and ended with another, started one version of naifanchi and
ended with a different version of naifanchi ( long ago I had been taught both
versions and can’t recall which was first) I only taught one version but my
mind would play tricks. I used to have very good control, but there were times
I nailed them in the face (abet with control not Ko's. Still causing unintentional
owies). They were continuing proof we all make mistakes to remind them of their
own.
The art of
making mistakes…. Hmmm the art of being a martial artist.
Assuming we
survive them, they remind us we have to continue to work harder, so we don’t
make them at the wrong time.
Full disclosure,
one time at a tournament in Delaware I was competing in a mid sized
tournament, one where over 20 black belts were judging black belt forms. My instructor
and seniors were among those judges.
I was competing
with Shi Shi No Kon No Dai, and I was experienced with that form. When I was
called, I felt in the grove and my form performance was doing very well. Then
at one point in the form you drop to the floor to rise with a forward strike
the bo sliding forward between your left hand fingers.
Everything was
so perfect, I remember rising and striking forward with the bo, However as I
did so my fingers flew open when I did the strike. It was wrong, I knew it, my
seniors knew it,
I did not pause
and completed my form, I so wanted it to be a perfect performance before my
instructor. But it was what it was. And
I was correctly judged by in instructor and seniors. Even if the others on that
panel did not know the form. And that is all I wanted, fair judgment.
Proving I did
not know the form as well as I thought I did, and it was time for more work.
Mistakes will occur.
How we learn from them shows the quality behind our art.
The instructor
leads the way for their students.
Lead them forward.
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