Monday, August 27, 2012
I am now cancer free, But Mysthenia Graivs which developed remains. Unfortunately I am now in the best shape I’ve been in, around 220 and unable to do much.
The cause is unclear. It may be genetic or perhaps a result of the chemotherapy and x rays I received.
But the result is that I am disabled, unable to work and in poor shape. Right now I’m on short term disability.
So far my treatment has gotten no results.
I find it difficult to talk. I’m impossible to understand on the phone. I have little balance and I tire very easily. My fine motor control is gone I can’t write and typing is difficult (this took a long time to prepare).
All he decades of practice and I have very little now. How quick it goes.
I can’t drive and my days are now confined to the house.
I do walk with a cane and several times a week I walk for exercise , 1 or 2 miles. Falling is a concern and I wear a life monnitor to call for he.p.
Although my balance is shot I still practice my tai chi and karate. I’ve become the old man.
My thinking is fine but it is very hard to express myself. I spend a lot of my time thinking on karate issues.
I expect to help with the kids class after Labor Day, but am unsure what I can do yet.
I work on my karate and tai chi as a way to learn my different potential. Not a cure but a life.
I am learning a lot about being disabled. The looks on peoples faces when they can’t understand me, the patience it requires helping them.